Wednesday, November 3, 2010

T-minus 5 days and counting...

I can't believe we are leaving in 5 Days! That means in 7 days Selah will be in our arms Forever! I have so MANY emotions that I feel everyday. I am Grateful, Happy, Blessed, Sad, Scared, Nervous, In Love, Smitten, Did I mention So happy and Thankful!!

I am Sad for Selah. I know she will grieve her friends. She has been in the BH since she was 8 months old and many of the children in her group have been there the same amount of time. I can't imagine how they will feel will she leaves? I can't imagine how she will feel will she realizes she is not going back?? My heart is aching for the the day we bring her home. Mostly it is happy BUT there is a huge part of me that is so sad for her and for the rest of the children left behind. I have been to this orphanage 4 times in the last year. We have gotten to know each and every personality of every child. It is like leaving my children behind.... I wish that everyone would adopt at least one child. Just one! It does change the life for that child.

I wish I could say that I will never look back once we leave but I can't! I love those kids, I love that orphanage, I love Kazakhstan! I am not saying that I am not happy to get our girl out of there, I AM VERY HAPPY, but it doesn't change the fact that there are still 100, 000 orphans in Kazakhstan that need Mommies!

I am ready to bring her home, I am ready for my family to be on one continent, I am ready to get her home and healthy and chubby, I am ready for her to have a mommy to kiss her booboos and rock her to sleep, I am ready for our girls to meet her, I am ready to kiss her goodnight and hold her tight! I am ready to have 4 daughters :)

So In 5 days our lives will change again forever, In 7 days Selah will not know what hit her. Please pray for her heart, her poor tiny little heart. She is leaving the only place she has ever known...

Thank you for all of your prayers. You guys have been so supportive and loving and we appreciate all of it! Soon she will be in our arms forever! Hold on Baby girl, we are coming....


  1. It is so heartbreaking to know for her to have the love a family she will have to experience a loss as well. Poor baby. I will pray that she will adjust well & it not be too hard for her. You are prepared & know she will go through grief & that's what makes you an awesome Mommy! I will pray for both your hearts, it's so hard to see them go through that, it's such a helpless feeling!

  2. Thanks so much for the invite. I am beyond excited for you. Hannah was three when I met her and the pictures of Selah remind me of that time. It is hard to think of the loss they will feel even though we know they are coming to something better. I don't know how Selah will react but Hannah has never mentioned her life before, doesn't really like to look at the pictures, and doesn't like to hear Russian spoken now. It makes me sad because it makes me think she is very happy to leave it all behind or afraid that she will go back--either thought makes me sad for her.
    Whatever Selah feels she will have you to empathize and help her through it--You are an awesome Mommy and your whole family is so blessed.

  3. I'm so happy for you that you get to go and get her soon!!! I'll be praying for a smooth transition and that she will let you soothe her grieving heart as a mommy would do. I pray that she finds trust in you and Brad quickly and understands the love you have to give to her. I pray that she will receive it all and not push it away. What a precious little doll she is!! Congratulations once again! Blessings to your family!!

  4. I get so emotional reading this. Stacy, this is so exciting and I'll be praying for you all for sure. Much love.

  5. I am so happy for you all! I will be praying for sweet little Selah! You all as well! :) I am praying that God will continue to bless you more than you could ever ask or imagine! (Eph. 3:20) I know He already has...but I know He has even more in store for your beautiful family! Love you all!

  6. Stacy,
    What a heartfelt post. I could not agree more with you, this will be a huge loss for Selah but hopefully in a very short time she will accept the love you will be giving her and not push you away too far. My heart tells me she is going to adjust beautifully because" you" are so aware of all the could be's... You are a wonderful mom and Selah could not be more blessed. Thinking of you and praying for a smooth transition. xxoo

  7. Hi, I just wanted to check on you and let you know that I'm thinking about you and your family. I can only imagine all of the emotions you're feeling. Hugs to you. Susan

  8. What a wonderful post! I will pray for a smooth, not bumpy flight and a smooth transition for Selah. She is absolutely beautiful! Congrats! Gena Lloyd