Tuesday, September 28, 2010
It is surreal to think she could really be home before Christmas. I love thinking that it could be the BEST Christmas present that we could ever receive. So wish us luck and pray hard that we get a YES!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
But right now I am listening to John Waller's song.... "While I'm waiting" and I have peace. Total peace and I am comforted by his words. Maybe tomorrow is our day...
I will let you know as soon as I know!
Thanks for the support and prayers!
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Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Me: That was nice Haven. I am glad you want Selah to come home soon.
H: Mom are we going to get another baby?
Me: After Selah?
H: Yes, she can sleep in the toy room.
Me: Ummm, no Haven, Selah is it.
H: MOM, I want another sister but smaller than Selah.
Me: Well Sissy is having a baby and that baby will be smaller than Selah.
H: Mom, Look at me (Hmm I wonder where she has heard that, haha) I Said I want another sister and she can sleep in the toy room.
Me: Okay Haven right now we need to focus on getting Selah home okay.
H: Okay and then we can get another one.
Mr : Hahahahahahah
Monday, September 13, 2010
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Today was a good day. We celebrated Selah's birthday today with her group. She was very distant today almost like she knew we were leaving. Maybe God is answering our prayers to guard her heart. She wouldn't let me or Brad hold her and she didn't care that we were playing with the other kids, she didn't care. Toward the end She let Brad push her on the swing and laughed from the bottom of her belly. Saying goodbye was rough (on me) but she did let me hold her while we said goodbye. I cried big crocodile tears and she laid her head down on my shoulders. Brad said goodbye, he is ready to go home so we can come back to get her. We saw the BH doctor on the way in to take her back to the group, I started crying again. She told Selah that Momma and Papa had to go away for a little bit and that we will be back soon to get her. I handled it better than I thought I would. It is very hard to watch your daughter walk down the hall to her group and know that you will not tucking her in for a few more months.
We are hoping and praying that our paperwork is submitted to court soon. we will keep you updated on everything that happens. Thanks you all for your comments (we LOVED them-they kept us going) and your support and prayers.
We are ready to be her Mom and Dad and love her like she has never been loved before! Soon and very soon! We are headed out early and are ready to see our girls back home!!
See you on the other side!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Selah was a rare form today. She has mastered the fit throwing. I guess like someone said she is testing the waters. I know it is all a part of bonding and if that means she is bonding with us she is bonding GOOD! LOLOL! When we got there she Ran FULL SPEED AHEAD TO MEET US! Then we noticed she had a black eye. It didn't make us feel so warm and fuzzy to leave her. We don't ever have a translator with us so we can't ask but I am pretty sure someone got her with some kind of a toy or something. She is not the only one that has had a black eye this trip, but what do you expect when you lock 20 2, 3 and 4 year olds in a room by themselves??? Nice play?? HAHA! I am sure if she messes with her big sister Haven's stuff she may have another one. LOL! Her and Brad played tug of war. It was so cute to hear her laugh when he pulled her close. I am going to miss that laugh!
All of the kids came out and they all got to play on the playground. it was the first time in 3 weeks they have let them. They take them out but they don't let them go on the toys. Brad and I think because it is sand and then they will be all dirty and sandy, but I think today was "bath" day (which doesn't happen very often) so maybe it was a special treat. Saying goodbye was hard today, I can't imagine how it will be tomorrow.
Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday with her group. We bought pastries and juice for the kids. I hope she knows how loved she is already!
Brad and I went to the Tsum to shop for some more souvenirs and I found a picture that I loved. It looks like Heaven in shining down on these Yurts. It is GORGEOUS! He bought it for me for my birthday. I can't believe this trip is almost over. I will miss this place, I really will. If the rest of our family was here, I could stay forever.....
One more post from Kaz until next time...
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Typical day and the Tsum
Chocolate for children
A Dombre (Kazakh instrument) made our of plants
The trash, close to the trees where they hang the food
Home sweet home
Do you see the smile face in the clouds? This pictures was taken on the morning of my birthday out of Addison's window. My mom says it is God telling us and her that everything will be okay! Isn't it Amazing?? I have never in my life seen anything so beautiful. I think this picture came at the perfect time in our lives, All of us!!
We enjoyed our Sunday. We didn't get to go to a church service but we had a devotional time together. We didn't have a way to get anywhere so we had it right here at home. We got up and made fried eggs, hashbrowns and toast (in a fry pan-no toaster). We have figured out once again how we as Americans are so spoiled! We have something that does everything for us. Here we have no dryer (so our clothes are crunchy), no toaster, we have no dishwasher no oven (that works), not automatic igniter on the cooktop (we use matches), no real mattress (just a piece of spongy thing on a box spring), no car (our feet get us everywhere we need to go as it does for most others), no T.V. (in English) and no fast food (anywhere!) . It think that is it, I am sure I forgot something. I am not complaining about how it is here, in LOTS of ways they have something on us. Really I believe we, as a culture, are spoiled. Being here makes me appreciate what we have so much more. Most people here would give their arms to be Americans! We need to be proud to be Americans. Yeah I know not everything is perfect but compared to what it could be, we live pretty darn good!
I had my first real melt down last night, missing the girls, knowing that I am leaving Selah. It is hard and I know some of you have done but 3 weeks is too long to be away from your children. I am hoping that my time away from Selah goes fast and that my girls at home completely recover from their mommy and Daddy being gone this long. I found out that Addi has been crying at night in her bed alone (someone always goes to check on her and she is silently crying-she is fine after a little bit-I thank GOD everyday that so many caring people have been around her loving on her when she needs it) and Haven is acting out (more than usual LOL) with biting and being mean. I am sure they will be fine, I know they will but it is hard for mommy to know I can't comfort them when they need it. Then I thought of Selah looking out the window for us after we leave, forget it. I had a good cry and today I am better. I knew it was only a matter of time before I broke down!
We walked for about 4 hours again today. We have seen alot of dumpster diving and today we finally realized that when the people take there things to the trash, if it is something that is still good, they hang it on a tree in a bag. So when we left after dropping something off, we took a bag of stuff down (apples, the rest of the chicken, and some bread). When we got home about 2 hours later, it was gone. The poverty around here is staggering.
We are now in for the night, prepping to see our girl tomorrow! We are going to watch a movie. We ate russian pancakes with jam and peaches for dinner, since we had a big lunch! Tuesday we are hoping that the BH lets us bring cupcakes and juice to celebrate Selah's birthday with her and the children before we leave. It is not to far off and I am sure we will miss it. I am hoping for her birthday present we can give her a Mommy and Daddy! Goodnight friends!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Probably not going to hold in a wreck ( do you see the safety pin?) LOL
Maybe Pasha is here. hahahah
Russian book by William Young (a william young works in Brad's office)
Birthday dinner Place
Iliya, Ayman's Beautiful son! That was a bow I brought her for her baby in her tummy (its a girl and I keep teasing her that she is going to name is Stacy!)
My beautiful flower arrangments for my birthday from Ayman and Yarik!
These sheep are carrying apples for the Shepherd!